Hi Robin
I know what you mean -
http://starshine1.aidpage.com/here is my blog and you can take a look to see if there is anything to help you
there is modestneeds, wishuponahero , grantedwish, netwish etc there and more good luck Robin
Let us see if we can bring joy back to your life.
call 211 for help or there site in my blog
take care
hugs
Starshine